I have been very musically prolific today laying down 2 demos and finishing up this little meditative track, influenced by my favourite ambient artiste Boards of Canada.

I place this on my blog because it has special meaning for me.

It’s for my dearest gran who passed 2 years ago. Even now, I miss her dearly and her presence.

Upon her death, her body was cremated after which half of her ashes were dispersed in Malaysia (her home) and in Kerala, India (her real home) 4 months apart.

The song is called ‘Ashes Out To Sea’, a sombre, reflective piece capturing my emotions on the 2 days I witnessed my grandmother finally continuing on her soul’s journey. Seeing charred remains of someone you love very dearly isn’t an easy thing but I managed to keep my composure about me.

Seeing the winds carry her far out to the ocean is something I still wonder about today….

While I know my grandmother is no more, I still wonder where her ashes might have travelled 2 years on in this physical world…

Everytime I pass the ocean or sea, I ask myself – was it turned to fish fodder or landed down thousands of feet to the bottom of the ocean? Or has it turned into corals?

I don’t know but I do know that after a cruel life of suffering, she is at peace, hopefully reborn into a new and better life and I hope this song conveys that too.



About thejellyfarm

In real life, I am a television writer and producer...er no...scratch...a television director....noo, scratch....a media loser.....wait, that doesn't sound quite insulting enough....... OK, ahem. In real life, I'm an idiot box expert with a penchant for the creative. In short, I'm a loser with no focus or direction in life. I just go where the creative flow takes me. Mostly it takes me to clogged up drains and stinky oceans but it's going.......going.....somewhere. And this blog is an expression of that mindblowing roadblock. Creative frustration is a great motivator and here is a result of that.

Posted on September 11, 2011, in Music, Personal and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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