56. 100% DEATH

Day 4 since Nanny died.

Still sad and grieving at points.

Still finding more evidence of my Life being meaningless.

Still angry yet happy for  gran’s peaceful end yet still navigating through complex emotions.

Still not in the mood to talk to anyone or engage in anything because realisation has struck that nothing means anything.

We are all ashes and dust.

This body and its thoughts and actions is illusion. I don’t mean anything, really.

Death of body is 100% guaranteed.

Spirit is eternal.

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About thejellyfarm

In real life, I am a television writer and producer...er no...scratch...a television director....noo, scratch....a media loser.....wait, that doesn't sound quite insulting enough....... OK, ahem. In real life, I'm an idiot box expert with a penchant for the creative. In short, I'm a loser with no focus or direction in life. I just go where the creative flow takes me. Mostly it takes me to clogged up drains and stinky oceans but it's going.......going.....somewhere. And this blog is an expression of that mindblowing roadblock. Creative frustration is a great motivator and here is a result of that.

Posted on August 3, 2009, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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